"Breath (2AM)"

I love this song. I could have written it about 18 months ago. Thank you Anna Nalick.

"Breathe (2 AM)"

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,

Oh breathe, just breathe.

Cheers,
~Jen~
xoxoxox

Two More To go.....

So I made it through the last few days with relatively little drama even though Monday I could have cried at the drop of a hat. Or in my case the drop of a box cutter. I'm surprised it's still in one piece after the abuse it endured Monday morning. I was dropping everything including a frame right on Krysta's head. It could have been the fact that I was running on maybe and hours sleep after staying up all night Sunday wondering if the building would be standing Monday morning. It was. Damn it.

This morning I went to unplug my car and stood there with the extension cord in my hand shaking my head cause the plug to the block heater was still attached to it. I think that was my cars way of saying " I've had enough of this shit. I want summer". Of course it's - 38 with the wind chill right now so I'll be dragging my sorry self down two flights of stairs to start my car shortly and then pray it starts in the morning. But that's just how shit rolls for me. Whatever.

Two more days to go till me and that bottle of tequila from Mexico get to know one another.

Que te vaya bien.
~Jen~

Steps To Your First Day As Department Manager

1. Work 5 days straight. Start you new position on day 6
2. Get served breakfast in bed by handsome boyfriend
3. Haul your tired ass out of your nice warm bed and get ready for work
4. Put on freshly laundered work clothes
5. Scrape 2 inches of frost of your windshield. Drive to work
6. Arrive 10 mins. early. Take deep breath
7. Talk to store manager about plan for the day. Get to work
8. Get excited that things are going well. Feel confident when store manager leaves you all alone to go for lunch
9. Panic when all hell breaks loose in the hour he's gone
10. Cry
11. When he returns go get a BIG Timmie's
12. Spill said Timmie's on your freshly laundered work pants
13. See step 10
14. Remain in car for the rest of your lunch break. Finally understand why the assistant manager has lunch in his car everyday
15. Thank god you have a good crew to help you close the store
16. Check everything on your to-do list three times
17. Decide it's all done right. Take two tries to set the store alarm
18. Get in car and drive home
19. See steps 10 and 13
20. Stay up all night wondering if you should have checked the list 4 times.......

Cheers,
~Jen~

Brrrrr......

My parents are on a cruise right now, well at least half of them are. The other half is enjoying a balmy eastern spring day. Me, I'm freezing my ass off here in Regina. -32 with the wind chill today. More than anything I want to get out and run and burn off the 10 pounds I've put on over winter but I don't see that happening any time soon. The runners are ready and waiting for the next nice day though. Things here are good. Last week was a great week for Jason and I. He got a raise and I got promoted to Department Manager. It's not easy to start over from scratch but a little at a time things are getting better. The two of us still have as much fun now as we did when we lived in Ottawa/Montreal. If you know Jayse you know that your gonna laugh everyday if you want to or not. And of course I still melt when I see his dimples and that fantastic smile, even if he's getting himself in trouble. Which is most of the time lol.

The kids are doing well. Next month they both have birthdays. We are on the down slope to the end of the school year too which is nice. We are all looking forward to taking vacation this summer. I think it will be a trip to the lake with Grandpa and Grandma Sweety (my dad and step-mom).

Not to much interesting to share with you all. Things are pretty quiet here.
Cheers,
~Jen~
xoxoxox

My Dad Can Take His Thumb Off

The conversation I listened to in the car at 6:00 this morning:

McKynley: I know a magic trick, it's in my backpack
Alexis: Cool
M: Yeah, I should have brought it to show you (she goes on to explain it to Lexie)
A: My Dad knows magic, he can take his thumb off
M: My Dad can do that too!!
A: I know. He showed me
M: My dad does it really for real
A: So does my Dad and he can wiggle it when it's off too
M: I don't know how they do that
A: Where did they learn it?
M (with all confidence): Magic School
A: Mom, do we have a magic school here? I wanna learn how to take my thumb off
Me: Sorry that's a trick only Daddy's know how to do
M: We'll get him to do it after work
A: Yeah

ROFLMAO.
xoxoxox
~Jen~

Todays Main Event: Chundering

I got out the door this morning wearing matching socks and that was fairly impressive all things considered. Imagine taking your morning shower while your 6 year old is chundering in the toilet right next to you. Nothing between me and the chunder but a few mere inches and a very thin shower curtain. Yech. I'm fairly certain that my sitter is some kind of saint though, she was willing to take Lexie for the day anyway so I could work. By the time she got home she seemed to be on the mend. So here's hoping tomorrow is a better day cause I can't guarantee I will make it out the door with my sanity intact if tomorrow brings a repeat episode of today's main event. Fun stuff.
Cheers,
~Jen~

One Whole Year

There is a man in my kitchen and guess what? He's cooking! Perfection lol. So here we are celebrating another new year. Hard to believe that a whole year has gone by since I embarked my journey to a new life. Yes folks one whole year ago today I left for basic training in St.Jean, Quebec. Little did I know then that my life would be changed for ever. It wasn't long after that I met Jayse and the rest is history. Actually the rest is a long drawn out story with tonnes of drama that I'll save for my novel one day lol. But 4 and a half months in the middle of flat ass prairie land and it's all good. Finally somewhere I feel I can lay down some roots and lucky for me there is lots of soil around to do it in :P
Cheers,
~Jen~