The One Year Mark

The one year mark of our move to Regina is fast approaching. I, of course, find it hard to believe that it has been a whole year since we embarked on this journey to a new life. Jason an I both find ourselves facing new challenges and experiences everyday as we move from being two grown-ups in love to a family with three little girls. Everyone is testing the waters; figuring out what shape of the puzzle they are going to be. We are like the foundation of a new structure. Settling, solidifying, anticipating what will be built on top of us one board at a time. The walls will be strong and the inside well insulated. Holding strong against whatever storm life may send our way.

It's been a hard road for me. I took the left hand turn when everyone was so clearly pointing to the the right. Everyday I feel guilt and regret for the people I hurt along the way, for those that will have their own explaining to do and the "what ifs" that will never be answered. I didn't think I would ever get to a place where I would feel any of those things. I think the light switch in my brain was finally turned on because I see things a lot more clearly now. It was a long time coming but here I am.

I not sure if it was fate or pure luck that brought Jayse and I together but I am thankful for whatever it was. As cheesy as it is to say I knew right away that we were meant to be. Love at first sight? Maybe not. Love at first kiss? Most definitely. It's a moment I will never forget. Even now 18 months in, despite the everyday bullshit, the occasional argument and everything else that changes a relationship I still get the butterflies. He never falters. He is always there right when I need him to be. He never fails to surprise me with the little things. I have learned how to stand on my own two feet but It's nice to know that I don't always have too. We are partners and together we are making it work.

With love,
~Jen~